"I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the Lord. For his whole life he shall be given over to the Lord." 1 Samuel 1:27-28
As we celebrate Selah's first birthday home in the United States today, we are reminded of this scripture that describes what the Lord has done in our lives through becoming a family together. This little girl grew in our hearts for several years before she was in our arms. We prayed for her safety, health, mind, and heart as she waited for a family to call her own. The Lord has truly answered our prayers of bringing her out of orphan care, and setting her into our home...declaring her our daughter...no longer an orphan. Only those who have adopted and fallen in love with their adopted children understand when I say that she is just as much our daughter as Bryson and Lincoln are our sons. He knit her together in her birth mother's womb, but He grew her in our hearts from the beginning until now. The call to "give her to the Lord for her whole life" is pretty humbling and amazing. To know that He is trustworthy, good, and more than capable to take care of her is so freeing. We don't have to have all of the answers on how life will look moving forward, we have His answer of trusting Him because of His track record. He has taken care of us all, He brought our family together, and He promises to continue to be faithful.
We love you, Selah Grace AnLi! We celebrate three years of beautiful life in His creation of you. We are so happy that you were born, that you are home, and that we get to delight in you everyday. Your enthusiasm and sense of adventure is so contagious! You love deeply, and you feel deeply. We adore your sass and charm. Watching you grow into the little girl you are today has been such a gift to us. We are so blessed that God has answered our prayers in bringing you safely to us, and He will see us through the valleys and the mountain tops to come. You are chosen, cherished, adored, and beloved. You are our own. You can never outrun the love God has given our hearts for you. Happy Birthday to you, our sweet Selah!
Sacred Scribbles
"Be that as it may, my Father knows best, and I'm confident that He has placed me here; my task is to labor quietly until the pillar cloud removes and leads farther, working out God's purposes in God's time." -Jim Elliot
2.10.2015
1.19.2015
Legacy of Love
God has taught me in
this season of loss so much about what my Mom spent her whole life wanting me
to know. Sometimes God takes us into the valley to show us what we cannot
see when we are on the mountain top. There is a vision one has in the
valley that cannot be experienced anywhere else. I think of these moments
often as the valley of vision. I want to share one of my favorite prayers
with you all that describes the gift of reflecting that God offers us in the valley:
It was totally in her nature
to cook up a feast for our family of 23, putting her heart into every dish she
prepared to make sure each person in our family felt loved. She would never serve herself first, but
waited for each of us to be sitting and enjoying the meal before she would make
herself a plate. And then she usually
was the first to hop up and begin cleaning up the food and dishes, knowing that
time was precious and she wanted to get some quality time with her
grandchildren. Before the dishes had
dried and while the food was still warm in containers tucked in the fridge, she
would be pulling out crafts and games to engage the hearts of our children. So much laughter and music…always playfulness
and joy. Her words towards them were
life giving. Never a criticism. She encouraged each of us constantly. She never put her feet up before anyone else. And if she did, it was after everyone else
had their feet up, and she usually still had two feet on the ground to rock one
of her grandbabies. And by the time our
families were packing up to head home, she was in the kitchen swiftly packing up
leftovers for all of us to enjoy a second meal from the generous meal she had
provided to warm our hearts. She set
such a clear example of a mother who took care of her family. She exemplified the Mom I want to be.
Scripture tells us in 1
Corinthians 13:1-8 that, “If I
speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong
or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all
mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove
mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I
deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is
patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It
does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not
rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things,
believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends.”
I know she would have laid
her life down in a heartbeat for us to know how deeply loved we are by God, and
to see us share this love with one another. Her deepest prayers were that
we would know God’s love for us and that we would love each other in that way.
Scripture shares with us in John 15:13 that, “Greater love has no one
than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.” Mom has
demonstrated the love of Christ to us through the incredible ways she has laid
down her life for us again, and again, and again.
So while facing this valley of saying goodbye to such a
wonderful person here on earth, I also know that goodbye for now means see you
soon. Her memory carries on in all of us, and we can honor her by sharing
with each other how we were touched by this wonderful woman. We also have
hope that her joy is complete in heaven where she is experiencing the love of
Christ that she extended to each of us from Him in such a direct and personal
way. This is my comfort in the valley. I miss my Mom more than ever this morning,
but I truly rest knowing she is in the presence of Jesus rocking her six babies
and many grandchildren who had faith by sight before any of us. She is home and she is in glory. Death no longer stings for her, she is more
alive than she ever has been before. And
on the day we are reunited with her in heaven, I have no doubt she will have
prepared an amazing meal large enough to feed all of us and the hosts of heaven
with enough leftovers for us all.
7.30.2014
Good news and bad news
So today we received good news and bad news. We will start with the bad news, as the good far outweighs the bad! The bad news is that the US Consulate cannot issue Selah's visa today, and they are unable to ensure when they will be able to issue it. So in a way, we feel as though we are temporarily yet indefinitely stuck in China. We will definitely keep everyone posted, but please pray for this issue to be resolved. We are officially homesick more than ever, and we want to get home to our boys as soon as possible.
Now on to the good news! We have been in touch with the adoptive mother of Selah's best friend and big sister "Jie Jie" from her orphanage. Her name is Wren, and her mother expressed interest in allowing the girls to continue a relationship and connection in America! They live near Peoria, Illinois, only about five hours away from us. What a small world! We cannot express the incredible answer to prayer this is! Not only does Selah get to come home to her forever family, but she also gets to maintain a friendship with a sister she has known since she was one year old when she was brought to the orphanage. Wren's mom also said that they maintain connection with her favorite Nanny from the orphanage too, so there will possibly be a way for her to keep in touch with this young lady as well. We are already planning a visit to get these two sisters together. ;) Here is a picture of Selah, Wren, and their Nanny (who is wearing glasses).
Wren crying tears of joy after watching videos of Selah this past week with us. She is so thankful that her Mei Mei has found a forever family!!! |
Selah, her Nanny, and Wren by a river near their orphanage |
Another really neat thing that we were able to receive back in Nanchang was a picture and name of her foster mom who cared for her during her first year of life following her time in the NICU. We are going to be able to write her letters and send pictures through the orphanage to keep in touch with her. One day, we will return to China if Selah wants to see her homeland, visit her orphanage, and meet her foster mom who cared for her during her first months out of the hospital. This is such a huge praise, for we can rest knowing that she is not saying goodbye forever to these important relationships from her past, but we are able to foster those relationships to continue to grow in a different way. What a blessing!
7.28.2014
Zoo, Visas, and a Taste from Home
Also, we found out today that the Visa database glitch has been fixed, so we will not be delayed in returning home! Yay!!! We are truly celebrating! 3.5 more days in China to go before we board a plan to bring her home. We are ready to see our boys, and for her to meet our loved ones waiting for our return.
Lastly, this afternoon I found some solice during nap time in a taste from home that is right across the street from our hotel. I took time to pray and talk with God about all that has been going on. I also shared some things with Him that have been heavy on my heart in navigating these waters, especially in the area of Selah's trust with mealtimes and that we are going to take care of her needs. I really felt the Lord closely draw me in to say, "I have appointed you to be this little girl's mother. Give her time." I truly walked out of this coffee heaven with a sense of peace and assurance that God's got this. Even when it is hard, He knows and He cares. And He has already written the story to reveal His redemption in the end. But I can truly say from across the world, Starbucks never tasted so good!
7.27.2014
The many moods of Selah
Today we visited a beautiful little island in Guangzhou called Shamian Island. It had fun shops where we could buy little silk Asian dresses for Selah for $5 each. We also ate some American food at a great little diner called Lucy's Cafe. Selah had such a fun time playing in the garden area with the leaves and her doll. As we get to know her heart more and more, we are learning that mealtime and sleeping schedules are incredibly important to her. (Which is very typical for kiddos who have lived in orphanages.) We continue to try to build trust with her to reassure her that we will feed her, care for her, and provide breaks for her to rest and recharge. All of these needs can sometimes feel overwhelming at times to us, because things can change very quickly if she senses that her needs aren't going to be met. We have found this especially while traveling and being on a set schedule that is crucial to getting in needed appointments, and to attend outings that were arranged for all of the traveling families to enjoy. As she gets more and more comfortable with us, we are seeing more of her needs being expressed. This is all a part of the bonding process, as many adoptive families refer to as the "trenches". ;) Sometimes it's pretty, sometimes it's not. Overall, we understand that bonding and attachment will not happen overnight, and that it will take years of building trust with her for a secure healthy expression of needs to be the norm. For now, we are just taking each moment as they come, desiring to show her that she can count on us to meet her needs as much as we are able to. We want her to always know that we care, and that we have compassion for the last several years when her needs were not always attended to. It helps us to keep this in mind when we have tough moments. We were able to capture several pictures of her in the garden today, reflecting several of her moods! She is our delight! Enjoy!
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